Wednesday, September 22, 2010

When you don't want anything anymore...

I have just realized that there are worse things in life than pain, numbness, angst, sufferings, sadness, anger, depression...(you name all those fearful dark words). That split second when it hits you that you don't want anything anymore.
When the smallest zest of life is gone.
When desires make...poof...like soap balloons.
When you look around and you don't find any meaning whatsoever.
When you watch all those little things that were so precious, but which are now just things of no concern for you.
When future is reduced to the infinite zero, as you don't care anymore what will happen from now on.
When people seem strange puppets and you cannot understand who they are.
When nothing moves.
When void is perfect.
Fear it...as it is the scariest and the freakiest brain click in your life.

2 comments:

blue4inna said...

I understand what you try to express using the "when" and the nothingness that comes after. I hope things will grow to be better. hugs

Thais said...

For @blue4inna I usually avoid to express such extreme feelings, as they are no good for anybody. Still this post will remind me forever of some really challenging days I didnt want to forget. :) Thanks for dropping by. :)