Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Day 30

I knew I talked about him right before I went to sleep.
But still... To have KJH in my dream was an unexpected thing even for me.
He is still here. This is what he said.
He seemed neutral. Nor sad, nor happy. Just being.
He talked a lot with his mother and I was a simple witness.
Then... you through the haze, still restless.
Kkumkkuneun. With open eyes.

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Days 28, 29

Bracelets. I repeat, bracelets.
Still hiding.
The others are fleeting like spots on a photo.
Quickly, with no real anchorage.
One perfect, clear tear.
I have never seen such stubbornness.
Just open up already.

Sunday, June 17, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Days 26, 27.

Your cockiness and mistakes were shining brightly.
Painful to watch.
Indifference. This was the worse.
On the edge desperation.
The belly button.
And then, for two days in a row, waking up in the strong aroma of freshly made coffee.
Though... there was nobody around to make that coffee.
It was sick. And scary.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Days 23, 24, 25.

Still just a persistent hovering shadow, while the others are in for a treat. And when I say others, I mean everybody around you. Tiring like hell, even for a dream. 
Instead... days are worse now.
With acute restlessness.
And vivid flashes.
The past is still strong. Hitting hard when least expected.
Even in the middle of hundreds of people.
When alone, the cunning damned snake is showing its ugly head, trying to use its sharp fangs.

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Day 22.

I have never seen a more untouchable and grieving sea.
Again a glass barrier.
It was a sad dream. A very sad one.
With empty rooms and opened and closed doors in a never-ending run.
Blinding shades of blue and grey.
Somewhere in the distance, a sparkling yellow, but jumpy and trembling.

Monday, June 11, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Day 21.

OK. That was one heck of a party.
Now everybody wanted something.
Including Liza Minelli.
This was not a dream. It was a chaos.
Everybody was staying in line just to connect.
Much obliged, but the deal was different in my mind.
Your ghost still hovering in the background.
I think tech support is needed.
Vanilla Sky?

Sunday, June 10, 2018

Dream Journal - KHJ. Day 20.

Well, apparently the boys don't want this to be over.
Secondary routes taken.
Pleading and bargaining.
This time the smile was mine.
Also the parents discovering you and dancing.
A cool moment like no other.
Epiphany actually.
Maybe there is still a lesson to be learned.